Calling

dreaming~~

not many will understand what i've just been through

this has nothing to do with whining abt workload or wtv not.

when u receive a calling frm God, its gonna be tough for me to let go.

bt slowly i started to accepted it, and realise that my life has to change for the betterment of me, my family, and my religion.

many won't understand, for they dun understand the islamic viewpoint. secularism has taken over the world, so if they cant accept it, why wld i?

bt i have. and i wish i didn make any promises before. but now that i had, id live up to them, leave once they're fulfilled.

i will disappoint many people, bt please understand, compared to humans, id rather not disappoint God.

so by August, id leave.

i really want to focus on humanitarian work (yea rc is staying) and my own community now. no more self.

~~splat