lol

dreaming~~

lalala

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yay

dreaming~~

last post was jul 2. now is aug 21, and 51 days just flew by (yes i looked at the calendar before typing the word 51, kinda forgot that july has 31 days)

heaving a heavy sigh. school started and now im bogged down by homework. and not just any kind of homework...lol drawing and 3d modelling and reading a film script. lol things that id find fun to do at leisure time bt not when im tied down by rc stuff.

sian. nothing to post. life is jus a drag for now. everything is as usual. ups and downs. change. sumhow im getting bored of change. so how do i unbore myself? i have no idea

kind of losing interest in somethings, gaining interest in others. and they keep fluctuating. one time i luv dance, one time i get bored of it. one time i luv filming, other time im sick and tired of it.

now in a stage of im bored of everything and trying to fine sumtin im not bored of.

ok i fell in luv wif film again bt i wanna write my own script.

rawr. gdnite world

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2 down

dreaming~~

thats 2 down, and 1 more to go.

mite seem like im treating this like a checklist, but im not. just counting down the days of the calendar.

everything has been worthwhile, wish i can do more. and yea, there will be a lot more to come.

things will change. and they're starting to change already anyway

hah everytime i see the letters cha i think of my Charlie trainees.

its been another long journey..

Bravo, everything's a breeze, woohoo - 2009
Alpha, Ahana Ohana, boomz - 2010
The Way of Charlie - 2011

every year, (to me lol) think it gets better and better, closer towards what MOE wants from us, and slowly im finding ways to reach that goal while still remain the specialness for that platoon im taking.

Next year will be different again. i duno wad ill take, but i sure hope that i can still be there to help all cadets across the country and change rcy for the better.

Esther, Yvonne and Poh Boon sir, thanks so much for the opportunities. seriyously, (heheh) thank you!

Charlie Mentors, haha this is informal but youall better keep your 3 September free. Yes, after FDC, we has a meeting!!

Charlie trainees, see you on 23 July. hehe, u'll noe when the date arrives  C;

and now, foc, dance, and 1 major event to go. nvr stop does it...

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Calling

dreaming~~

not many will understand what i've just been through

this has nothing to do with whining abt workload or wtv not.

when u receive a calling frm God, its gonna be tough for me to let go.

bt slowly i started to accepted it, and realise that my life has to change for the betterment of me, my family, and my religion.

many won't understand, for they dun understand the islamic viewpoint. secularism has taken over the world, so if they cant accept it, why wld i?

bt i have. and i wish i didn make any promises before. but now that i had, id live up to them, leave once they're fulfilled.

i will disappoint many people, bt please understand, compared to humans, id rather not disappoint God.

so by August, id leave.

i really want to focus on humanitarian work (yea rc is staying) and my own community now. no more self.

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:)

dreaming~~

finally getting a break from the world
nice cup of coffee in the airconditioned room of starbucks. at half price *beams*

past few days had been trying to find a new source of inspiration and spice up my life
apparently I've been stuck with red cross and dance and art so much that i've started to have a taste of mental block, like those writer's block that writers get. (not sure what im saying but i guess i get what i mean)
and i realise im becoming lazier to type capital Is

in any case ive finally found the THING which i wanna do during the holidays. i guess my only concern now would be money. money yes, i can't believe that my $700 by the govt is gone, and to think that i recieved it on May 1, and its May 18. must be all the art work that I did. spent a lot on getting materials, now left with a nice 2 digit number in my back account.

Despite not looking forward to the day when my school starts, thats the day when I will receive my scholarship funds for 2012. rah

(hah and now i wonder why i would still spend time here in starbucks. coz its worth it i guess? by far its the best place where i can work and process as much creativity as possible. comfortable too.

orite, time to clear the small things that i wish to clear asap, before i can do the work that i've always wanted to.

you know, sometimes i just gotta learn how to say no so that i can start working on things that the real me wants to do.

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